a gallagher tale ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- This is the True Question of Love Have you ever noticed that you can look behind you and see the path you have created, but when you look ahead you have no real idea where you are going to end up? And when you look at that path behind, you can see how it got you to where you are, but when you were taking it, you didn't know you were going there? I don't mean to be so cryptic, really. I am a little down tonight. I find that I have led myself into a trap. Only now I have stopped, just short of the cage's gates, and I am looking behind to see how I've gotten here, and it's so clear. Every cookie crumb is in place and I see very clearly how things have ended up this way. And the truth is, I have no desire to take that final step into the cage. But on the other hand, the path was so long and arduous, the idea of back-tracking to try another way is daunting. Too daunting? Imagine... for example... you have completed four years of college towards a certain degree for a certain field.. and you have graduated and entered that field. And on the very first day in your new career position, you realize that you don't want to be in this field at all. But you have worked so hard to be there, and it took so much time and trouble, it is hard to leave. It's hard to decide to go back and complete even more school to be eligible for a new position in another career field. So there you are in the career you dreamed of and strived for, and you don't want to be there, but you can't find it in you to leave. What to you do? I stand in front of this cage and remain indecisive. Or rather, I am decided, I lack the conviction to carry out the decision. And it seems to be... shouldn't there be another direction other than forward or backward? I think it's about a full moon tonight.. maybe that contributes to this musing. 11:56 p.m. - Thursday, Sept. 27, 2007 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Today is Sunday November 18th - Sunday, Nov. 18, 2007 |
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